Feeling LOST and ALONE?
I did too!
As I started my healing journey 5 years ago, I found myself really alone in life with no one who knew what I was living with. I can honestly say that I lived in hell for 8 years. I lived with guilt (how could I just leave?). I lived with hurt (how could someone that loved me do this to me?). I lived with many pains and hurts that no one should ever go through.
I was truly TRAPPED!
As bad as the situation was, it grew worse. As the Bible states in 2 Timothy 3:13: But evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, deceiving, and being deceived. I was deceived and did exactly that, grew worse and worse. The breaking point was when my life was almost taken by Gregory. In that moment, I heard in my heart that if I didn’t get away, that he would go through with it the next time he got upset. I know that if I hadn’t changed, that I would not be alive today. Sadly, we hear about women in this exact situation that did not get away and that lost their lives because of it. If you know of a woman in this situation, please pray for her and help her get out of there. They may feel like they can’t, but they can. Please be understanding and do not give up on them.
I cried out in the moment when I almost went to heaven, “God save me”. And He did. He sent someone to save me. I walked away ALIVE. I walked away with my clothes and started all over. In that moment, I realized that all of those “things” that I thought I needed, I really didn’t need. My freedom and safety were more important than any material thing.
John 8:32 says that, “And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” As my spiritual father says, “Deception BLINDS and Lies BIND.” I had believed lies of change for too long. I had been deceived from the beginning but did not want to believe it. When I came back to Christ and got my nose in His book, Freedom came. Truth came! And there was no denying the truth or going back.
If you are in a situation where you feel trapped, you cannot FULLY enjoy life and be yourself. This life is too short to spend it like that. When you look back at your life, will you have any regrets? Will you be upset that you stayed in that situation too long? Will you be upset that you never conquered your weight problem or whatever you may be struggling with? I pray that laborers would come across your path to help you out just like God sent for me.
But the first step I had to do… was Change! I had to change in order for things to change.
It’s time to CHANGE! Let your new day be today! Right now! You are worth it! There is no food, drink, or any material thing that will ever fulfill that void or hurt. Knowing that… let’s stop that vicious cycle.