A few weeks ago, I met with a really good friend. During our visit, I was explaining what was going on in my life. I mentioned various issues at the office that had been on my mind. They encouraged me as best as they could. I think they could tell that I had some regrets about some decisions that I had made in the past. They looked at me and said, “You know what, Katie? God showed me something one day and it changed my life.” So, I leaned in earnestly waiting for the wisdom my soul needed at that moment. They said, “Mark 11:25 says: And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.” They said “God reminded me one day that “I” was a “anyone”. I needed to not only forgive others, but also forgive myself.”
At that moment, unstoppable tears started streaming down my cheeks. For I knew exactly what they were talking about. I have made so many mistakes in the past that affected how my life turned out. I have regretted marrying my ex-husband. I regretted not leaving him sooner. I regretted losing 8 years of my life. And even though I had forgiven everyone that ever hurt me, including my ex-husband, I REALLY hadn’t forgiven myself.
And so later that evening, I said out loud to myself. “Katie, I forgive you. I forgive the bad decisions you made in the past. I forgive that you didn’t wait on the Lord like you should have. I forgive that you waited so long to leave your ex-husband. I know you did the best with what you knew at the time and your heart was in the right place.”
There was freedom in that moment for my soul.
So, tonight, as I was cleaning out my bag the Lord reminded me of His revelation that He had shared with my friend and I felt prompted to share it with you.
Someone reading this also needs to forgive themselves.
I ask you tonight, to forgive yourself just as I did that day. Whether you write yourself a letter or tell your own self out loud how you feel. I encourage you to take that step of faith and LOVE yourself, just as God loves you. God doesn’t see the list of mistakes we have made. He sees who we are right now, at this moment. He has forgiven you completely, 100%, and the history removed forever. So, you let it go too!